Friday, February 19, 2010

The JOY of the Lord

Well, I was excited to have a quiet minute to blog again and share some photos of the twins 7th birthday and other Honey happenings, and I will; but first I must share something about my sweet Gigi. There was a moment this morning that I have been anticipating for quite a while, something we knew would come but we had been spared so far. As I brought my Gigi's toast and coffee in for breakfast, as Isabelle or I do every morning, I greeted her again and said... "Here's your breakfast Gigi". She was walking towards me and then she stopped, and looking at me a little bewildered said, "who are you?". I responded with a catch in my throat, "I am your grandaughter, Chessa". Of all the questions that Alzheimers has caused her to ask, all the comments and clear acts of confusion, this one pierced my soul. There have been dozens upon dozens of questions, daily at this point... asking where the bathroom is in her home, how to turn on the lights, wanting to go home and wondering where her home is, having to tell her anew that her brother passed away as she asked to call him, asking where her Mother is, who those children are (her great-grandchildren playing outside), forgetting our names from time to time, forgetting to eat or that she just ate, unsure how to get dressed each day, climbing in bed fully dressed at 4 in the afternoon...there are so many more, but this is the one I was dreading. She has forgotten my name, but never has she looked at me quite like this before. I should have known it might be today. This morning when I woke her and Papa, she looked confused and scattered. Chad and I had been late into the evening at the ER with Papa, and Gigi had gone to sleep without him. When they woke and Papa was talking so endearing to her, telling her that he was home, she looked unsure. As difficult as it is for us as family, it is nothing compared to the sorrow this disease causes Papa. He continues to love her so tenderly, calling her his "precious girl" and talking about their 64 years together. How thankful I am that the Lord holds them in the palm of His hands. He loves them more than I could ever dream. There is a such a peace that floods my soul when I think of them in eternity with Him. These are difficult days but there is no place I would rather be. The JOY of the Lord is my strength.

So...here is what I don't know about blogging....do I keep on with this post or do a new one for birthdays and other photos....oh well, I guess I am learning along the way! I think I will close this post out and work on the birthday post later or tomorrow...enjoy your Friday!

Monday, February 15, 2010

New Beginnings

Wow! I can hardly believe I am actually typing my first blog post! This very moment has been something I have contemplated doing for so very long and just did not think I had the time nor the energy to do it right...and I still might not, but here I am anyway! All along, the main reason I have wanted to blog is to have something to look back on, something to archive the special moments that the Lord is giving our family. After reading and watching blogs develop over the years, I have been inspired to share even just a portion of what I have seen others do. I do not have the talent to write, design and create an amazing award winning blog, I am simply hoping to capture the moments that may otherwise get lost in the hustle and bustle of life. If I am able to sit and write, add some photos and click the publish button, I have an opportunity to make a memory forever instead of another moment forgotten.

So, I guess it is time to give a glimpse of who we are...seems strange to "introduce" us when I am possibly only writing to myself (and family) :-) but, someday there may be others who peek into our lives and they might want to know a little about us! We are a simple family led by a Great God. If there is one phrase that encompasses what my husband and I would desire most for our family, it is the title of this blog..."Only one life...'Twill soon be past, only what's done for Christ will last". Desiring in Christ that our actions, reactions, words, deeds, and moments be spent so that they strengthen our eternal perspective. There are triumphs and failures, joys and sorrows but above all we hope to grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ, keeping in mind always to press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.

Chad and I have been married for 16 years and we have 5 sweet blessings. Mitchell is 13, Isabelle is 9, our twins, Will and Shelley are 7 and JD is almost 3! My hubby is an electrician and I am a homeschooling, stay at home mom. We are also privileged to care for and love on my grandparents in our home. Papa (91) is wheelchair bound and Gigi (85) is declining with Alzheimer's. Our days are very full, sometimes wonderful, sometimes tearful but the overarching theme of our life is that we are blessed beyond measure! Really, truly, undeniably, beautifully blessed.